inthisdayofage

As I was visiting other people’s blogs today this one had an advice column. So I thought maybe I should try that. So listen up ladies!! here is my advice for tonight…If a guy doesn’t call you, or show any genuine interests… Please stop making excuses for him. “Oh he’s busy!!” No! He’s not busy. No man is ever too busy for the girl he likes!Advice number 2Stop listening to your friends bad advice! For example, I’m sure you all have a friend like this… Everytime you tell her about a new guy she has to pick him apart and constantly ask have you heard from him? and judge the relationship, or say anything negative about it. DO NOT LISTEN TO HER!! She is probably jealous of you, or doesn’t know the guy like you do. I only know this because I go through it all the time with a friend. Just because you have bad luck doesn’t mean I will. I don’t pick losers like you! Thanks for reading!! Have a great night! 

It’s funny the stuff you find online, or not. I made some pretty gross discoveries on a website after logging off of myspace. There is a link to another website. I don’t even want to go into details because it seems like a lot of people have this and I don’t want to offend anyone or remind them of their horrible luck. I just needed to type to get this off my chest. I am lightheaded and grossed out. Okay you know what I don’t even want to beat around the bush but they have websites for people with std’s to meet other std carriers. So anyway I clicked on this website and did a search of people in my area and recognized quite a few more faces then I would have liked to. It’s really sad and I wish people would be more aware of what they are doing behind closed doors. Maybe it’s a sign from god to warn me to be careful. I don’t know, but what I do know is that I am scared! Not because I have been with any of those people, but scared because I have known some people who possibly have been with them, and scared that the numbers were so high! Are we really not that careful behind closed doors? You need to know who to trust and who you can’t. Abstinence is the best protection! I just wish more people could apply this to their daily life. 

So I just wanted to say what is up with our President Obama apologizing all the time to other countries about America? I am very disappointed with him right now. Not even just with the apologizing thing but with how he has been acting. For an example, the handshake with Mexico’s Chavez or whatever his name is. The handshake is a lil too hood like for me. Second, bowing to the Saudi Arabian guy. What is up with that? Why is he making friends with all these extremists? This is all just a little too scary for me. Taxes are going up, the government is spending, spending, and spending some more. Also on to the Anti- Tax Tea Parties, liberals are saying that everyone that attended one is a whiny, wimpy, weasel and that we are complaining because we are all redneck racists that have a problem with the color or our Presidents Skin. Really now Janeine Gorofolo or however you spell your name. Redneck racists huh? Isn’t that a racist remark right there? Not all the people attending were “rednecks”, or conservatives, or American hating. If you actually watched the news or attended one you would have heard them chanting GOD BLESS AMERICA! Which brings me to another point, How can Obama say this isn’t a Christian nation? SERIOUSLY!!!!???? Thats what this whole nation was founded on!!! With stupid remarks like this I can’t take liberals seriously and with how they are reacting and treating others when they are using their freedom of speech right. I don’t know why the democrats are making such a big fuss, why do they care? They don’t pay taxes anyway so they should just BUTT OUT! 

Is a creepy little town and especially at night. This town is located in Kern County and surrounded by Rosamond and Tehachapi. Mojave is pretty dark at night with plenty of cops around pulling people over and arresting them. Seems like every time I drive through this small town I see someone getting arrested. But really though, this town is scary at night. Gives me the chills when thinking about it. A Joshua tree just sitting there in the dark, an eerie piece of work if you ask me. A cactus tree, that is brown, but only a figure in the dark. In 2000 the population was 3,836 which seems like a lot to me considering what a small town it seems to me. I would have only thought the number to be in the 100’s. This town in my eyes is ghetto, and not that I feel better or higher then people but sometime I look down on people who live there. I’m like Mojave? You really live there? Why? There is nothing out there. But then again kinda near Mojave is Edwards Air Force base so I’m sure a lot of military families live there for their time being stationed at Edwards AFB. Being a military brat myself I think it would be pretty depressing to be stationed at Edwards AFB and living in Mojave. There is nothing to do, its a dank little town, with quite the distance to the base or anything of real civilization, but thats just my opinion. Well thanks for reading my rant, and Mojave….. I’ll see you again on Tuesday. 

Guess who is going to Jamaica again??? ME!! So my friend Courtney calls me today and tells me that the plans are set again for Negril Jamaica!! She is having her wedding there and I am sooo excited! So my diet is back on and I swear I will be looking good in a bikini there! Athletic toned body here we come! Tonight for dinner I had a huge bomb as* salad. It was so good. It had carrots, red bell peppers, egg, and romaine and green leaf lettuce topped with Balsamic Vinaigrette dressing. Yum! and with that I had peanut butter and jelly sandwich on wheat bread. Tomorrow I’ll be heading to the gym for a very much needed sweaty workout. Love it! I’m so excited! I’m also excited about getting back in shape. I used to look good. I mean I still do but I have gained weight and thats not cute! I probably sound like I’m self hating on my weight but its not that I am its just not healthy! So theres nothing wrong with admitting I need to lose weight and what better time to get in shape then planning a trip to Jamaica!! WhoooooHoooo!!!

So I am in this situation, the one where my guy friend really likes me but I like his friend. I don’t know what it is about the friend. When I first met him I didn’t like him like that. I guess the feelings are just real because once you get to know someone you start to like them as more then just a lust thing. Cause I never lusted after this person until after a few times of talking. I think I am off limits to him. He hasn’t text me in awhile and I know he is busy and I know I can just text him but I don’t want to be the one chasing him. I want him to text me and say hi how are you and what not. Today I have been thinking about him ever since I woke up. I want him to be my man!!! Damnit! I have the tendency to blow things too. Which I think I already did. He probably thinks I like his friend that likes me, but I don’t. He told me I needed to let him know how I really feel and I told him I have but the dude I like said that his friend thinks we have something special. We don’t! He also told me that everything that me and the guy that likes me talk about he hears about it. So he tells him everything. Probably making him think that I like his friend too when I don’t. This leaves me sad. Why when I actually really like a guy and can ignore his faults that I can’t have him. I can have almost anyone I want but the one I really like. 

Is a horrible disease, get well soon!!! So yesterday I was at the mall with my mom when we are in this store and I see this girl I used to know. She dated my ex boyfriend after I did and me and her became friends. I guess that was a bad idea cause she used to compete with me. When they broke up she and I were at the gym and I remember her looking over and running to keep up with me and my speed. She kept saying ugh you burned more calories then me. So I was like okay bad idea, she is competing too much with me. I always thought she was a nice girl though. Years later she and I are talking online and she gives me his number saying she feels bad because me and him were best friends and she wouldn’t allow him to see me and that she has grown up. So I’m like whatever thats cool. I send him a text saying hi and he replies and we chatted for a short bit. Then I run into him at my work and he told me she was getting all crazy saying did she call? and that she was reading all his text messages. So I’m like whoa she is crazy! So okay now back to present time. She is in the store and apparently works there and so I walk out and tell my mom to meet me outside. When my mom comes out she tells me that she told her the whole story while she was helping her. I’m like omg. My mom was like yeah she said that she used to be very jealous of you and that she feels bad and blah blah blah. But its like okay why would you go and check his phone all crazy when you told me everything was cool?? Even after you been broken up for a year and a half now??? GET WELL SOON!

Okay so you know I am a big fan of the Bachelor and an even more big fan of Melissa on the Bachelor. Last night was devastating. For those who didn’t watch this is a spoiler right here. So if you recorded it and will watch it later do not read. So the night was going good. The whole time my friend and I knew he would pick Melissa. I could feel it. Molly gets out of the car first. This means that she is getting dumped. So we cheer while all this goes on. Then Melissa comes and I’m about to cry because Melissa is soo happy talking about how she is always the one getting dumped but not this time. Then she goes on to say, “I’m a Mesnick.” This is Jason’s last name. So yeah I’m about to really start crying. I was soo happy for her!!! Then they pull this after the final rose ceremony where there is no audience. So we are like what is going down????? What happened??? This fool Jason DUMPS my girl MELISSA on NATIONAL TV!!!!!!! How could he do that to her??? Thats just wrong. He could have dumped her before he surprised her with all that on national TV. That is reeeeally bad on his part! Then Molly comes out and he tells her everything and her smile and happiness crush me even more. I just kept thinking what about Melissa? How could they do this to Melissa? Molly says, “I’ve been waiting for this to happen! Dreaming about it happening!!” Well you got your wish, Melissa is broken hearted now. Always getting dumped. I just don’t get why a guy would dump her????? Doesn’t make sense at all to me. I hope Melissa finds happiness soon AND that they make her the next Bachelorette!!! 

Today I was reading a book about Joseph Smith. This got me thinking about how things were in their day. I was reading a chapter about his grandpa and how he served the country and went to war here in the United States with Indians and what not. Then it stated that he met a young woman and they soon married. I wonder what I would have been like in that century. Then this got me thinking about Emily Dickinson the poet and how she felt so alone in her time. I’m not really a poetic person or sit there and read poems but I do know that a lot of her poetry is about her loneliness. She sat at the desk in her room and just wrote poems all day. What kind of life is that? She didn’t become famous for her poetry until after she died when her sister found all her poems written on scraps of paper. So I was just curious to what I would have been like. I was thinking our lives can’t be too much different? I mean in past centuries there hasn’t been all the technology that has been recently developed to make our lives easier. Would I have been like Emily Dickinson? Sitting in my room writing my blogs on the computer instead of scraps of paper. hahaha Probably not, but who knows. Anyway this blog is just random thoughts that popped up into my head when I was reading about Joseph Smiths grandfather.

So as I sit here and write to myself…I realize I am alone in my blog world. Haha. No one leaves comments. So I realized no one is reading this. So I’m just going to type about my day at work yesterday, since no one will read it and this is my own little private diary. Yesterday I had a somewhat good day at work. It started off good but then around lunch time I see some enemies walking in the door. I’m like great. So one of them is constantly looking at me so I raised my hands and said WHAT? Do these people really need to come into my work? They both live 15 mins away they could have gone to another store that was closer. They did that on purpose. Whatever. I know I am better then the both of them. They both don’t have jobs, don’t go to school…Can we say loser status??? Hahaha So then my friend comes in and we head to lunch and had some yummy food at this asian place. The guy that worked there kept checking me out which makes me feel pretty, even though I know I wasn’t looking my best. haha Then the night gets better at work..No enemies come in, I’m surrounded by my friends and we are having a good time, then a fight breaks out in the store and I get to run over there to check it out, then someone was stealing so I got to help with all that ringing up the total and what not to see how much they would have ran out the doors with. So all in all it was a pretty fun day at work that made up for the two enemies coming in. Well anyway I am going to the store now to do some shopping.