inthisdayofage

Before I head to bed, for those that care this blog is about updates on my life. Jamaica……. Yeah about that, alot of my friends family won’t be able to make the trip to Jamaica for her wedding so instead she is having it in the state where she lives. So thats cool because I used to live out there and I’m excited to go back and see people. I’m still continue to lose weight and stay on track of my diet. :D I saw Sisterhood of the traveling pants 2 today. It was pretty good but I would say not as good as the first one is. The second one tied up lose ends about the first one though and so that was pretty cool to see what happens. Yeah I know even though it was just a movie. Still pretty good. The impatient lady who wanted me to send her book to her overnight…. She responded to my email saying thanks for the quick reply and I responded to that and then today she sent me a message saying she received her book yesterday. So there you go! haha Patience is a virtue. Your book was a day away from your hands. As for me today…. I’m getting over a cold. Slowly but surely and I can’t wait till the day when I’m able to get back out there and run/walk and workout some more. I truly miss my workouts. But like I said earlier, I’m still losing weight. It’s 80 percent diet and 20 percent working out. Have a good night everyone! 

I just got an email from this lady I sold a book to online on amazon.com. She says to me that she needs this book this week for a class. I’m thinking I totally understand I have been there before. But thats their fault for waiting for long to purchase the book. As a student you should know this!!! Purchase the book as soon as you get information on what books(s) you need. When you buy books online this is what happens! You have to wait for it to be shipped. Okay? Second she asks me if I can overnight the book to her. Lady are you crazy???? You paid for standard shipping, I already sent the book standard, and then you have the nerve if I can spend 26 some dollars of my OWN money so you can get your book on time? You got to be kidding me. Crazy lady! I have sold many items on amazon without any problems. Watch this lady be the first to report a problem. I have a bad feeling by judging her character that she is going to say she never got her book or something when in reality she did. I try to help other broke college students by doing it this way but people are so impatient and dishonest these days. Maybe this will be the last time I ever sale anything online. So to the impatient lady who didn’t order her book on time, BE PATIENT!!! Patience is a virtue. Try learning some. 

I am sooooo glad he sent home Megan, Lauren, and the other one I call Bucky Beaver. She is the myspace stalker that acts like she is 15. The thing about Lauren is she reminds me of a girl one of my guy friends would date. Which means BAD for her. He dates the bitchiest girls who think they are hot stuff. Lauren is like, “Why didn’t you follow my directions? I told you to give me the rose and you didn’t!! Blah blah blah.. I am mad at you! You know you want to kiss me!! You know you do!” PATHETIC!!! And thats why YOU got sent home WITHOUT a rose. HAHA! Next on my list was Bucky Beaver. I didn’t like her because she is a whiny pathetic little 15 year old who lied about her age when being casted on the show. Last episode I SWEAR she made herself throw up when all the drama was going on. Its like omg you are ridiculous and you look ridiculous. Last is Megan. Megan got sent home because she is a bad kisser. If you watch how she kisses in the episode you can clearly see she is bad at it. Let me ask you this, would you want to kiss her???? I didn’t think so! Also Megan is kinda bitchy towards the other girls. They all got a vibe from her the first night that read Bad News all over her face and thats why they chose to send her home. Oh and she lied about her age too! She claims to be 25 but shes more like 35! I really like Melissa, I have been a fan when she was on the Dallas Cowboys team, she is cute, real, fun, and spunky and I like her! So GO MELISSA!! Oh and we all know Jason is really feeling her! Molly as well. 

Was actually a pretty good movie. I watched it today for the first time and couldn’t hold back the tears. I’m so excited cause I have the second one waiting for me downstairs for when I get a chance to watch it. At first I was like omg why am I watching this movie?? Why did I rent it? When it was out in the theaters I was like lame!!! But then when the second one came out and a few friends of mine said they were gunna see it I watched the previews and was like hmm that actually looks good. So yeah I rented the first one and borrowing the second one to watch. I’m actually really excited to watch it but my mom wants to watch it with me because she has already seen the first one but not the second one. So I’m thinking great I hope I don’t get all emotional during the second one like I did watching the first. See it was okay to cry tonight because I was alone, and no one would see my sad pathetic self crying to the Sisterhood of the traveling pants. hahaha This was an inspiring movie though, honestly. If anyone hasn’t seen it and are thinking the same thing I was in the beginning please just watch it, its really good!! If you like chick flicks with friends, romance, serious life changing events, then you will really like this one. I promise!! If you don’t feel free to write me a comment saying how you disapprove of my recommendation.

Ugly. Tonight I hung out with an old friend who has changed soo much. She is drop dead gorgeous and everyone notices this. Everywhere we went all the guys are totally checking her out. Like necks breaking to look at her. Its almost uncomfortable being around her because of this, its like I feel gross standing next to her and none of the guys are looking at me. Not only is she drop dead gorgeous she is really sweet as always. I just don’t get why she is single. I would probably be embarrassed to see videotape footage of us hanging out, I probably looked soo uncomfortable and ugly next to her. I mean I don’t really have any self esteem problems. I know I am pretty but… right now I feel far from pretty. I am wondering if hanging out with her would be good for me, or bad for me. If we hang out all the time am I going to feel more encouraged to work out harder, or am I going to feel like crap and loath in my self hating after we hang out? We would get along great hanging out though because we are both single, have some of the same interests, some of the same friends, no kids. Most of my friends it seems like have kids or a boyfriend that keep them busy. But yeah I am done self hating on myself for now. :D 

Is anyone there? Or am I just talking to myself? Leave comments people! I know you are out there! So anyway I had such a horrible day today and thats what is keeping me up. I cant even go out anymore with my friends it seems like. When I do stalkers friends recognize me and its drama. Makes me sad. So I had to leave early because of stuff like that. I started crying on the way home because I feel like this salker has seriously taken apart of my life away. I have to be cautious about everything I do. Everywhere I go. I’m not even sure if I should go to work the next time I’m supposed to go in because thats where I see him the most. It’s really upsetting. Maybe I should move??? I don’t know. I was definitely thinking about it tonight.

Today I called out of work because it was a snow day. I didn’t go play out in the snow. In fact I cleaned and read all day. Then at night I watched a cute movie called The Neighbor and now I’m relaxing listening to music about to read some more. Its been a great day! I have to work tomorrow night but it’s okay. I only work 4 hours and it’s the good managers. So I won’t be so miserable. I mean there’s no telling if a customer pisses me off but it still is better when the good managers are there. I can’t wait till school starts. Jan 7th please hurry!!! I have decided not to move from L.A county and I am relieved. My roommate flaked out saying something about getting her own place or moving out of town. Whatever loser! So I feel like it’s a sign from god that I need to stay here for now. I’m even applying to grad school here. Wow Go Figure! I think I can live here for a few more years. Its cheaper that way, I got my family here, and my amazing friends. I’m just trying to make the best decisions for my life. I’m tired of paying for the mistakes I have made, I’m tired of correcting them, this time I’m not making any room for mistakes. I’m done messing up. I’m not giving people chances because I know they will only bring me down. For example, hanging out with losers from work. It’s attention

Why??? Why I ask… Why do you lie? Theres something wrong with you people. I’m talking about the ones who just lie about simple things. You ask them, “Where did you park your car?” In their response they lie about it. I mean just random things to lie about that don’t make any sense. Why do it? I mean another thing I don’t get is their bigger lies as well. They can’t tell the truth at all for the life of them. I’ve dated a guy like this. I knew he was no good for me, but there was something about him that I just couldn’t let go. Maybe it was his good looks, but he lied about EVERYTHING. I still have no idea about his family life because hes lied to me about them. I don’t know how many siblings he has, I don’t know if his mom really tried to kill him when he was 7 years old, I don’t know anything! Why can’t you just be honest about this stuff? He also lied to impress me. Little things that are stupid in my eyes. Its like you know what would really impress me??? IF YOU DIDN’T freakin LIE!!! I finally left him for good but I still think of him every once in awhile. I think its better that we aren’t friends for me to really move on from him. I know I would never want anything serious with him so its like wake up and get on with your life. I need to tell myself this. Let it go! I have a friend too that likes to lie. I can’t believe anything he says. Why do we still talk then you may ask? I don’t know. He doesn’t even live in the same state as me. We just text, but he lies too. I have caught him in several when he came to visit me and then several after he left. Lying to impress me, lying about everyday normal life things. Dude- Go see a therapist. Lying is not good, it hurts the people you lie to and it hurts yourself as well. So if anyone that is reading this that lies, please don’t. Its not fair or fun.

Why is it that I tend to fall for men so far away? If they live across the United States from me, cool, I like them! haha Seems like I’m always falling for dudes who are too far away. That or I fall for the ones I simply can’t have. I mean I have admitted to myself that I have commitment issues. Not like the kind where I would cheat every chance I get cause that is not me. All of my boyfriends except one have been some kind of long distance relationship. The guys out here I would never date, its always going to be someone long distance. I guess maybe because I’m not ready for something serious yet and a long distance relationship provides that special someone to tell them about your day but you don’t have to feel like they are always there. I don’t know, my friend last night, a good guy friend, told me what I needed was a good friend with benefits. I don’t know if he was talking about himself because he was talking about sex a lot and then when we were getting off the phone he said out of nowhere, “I’m going to have wet dreams about you” and then he laughs. But I would never date him seriously either. So yeah hahaha thats where I’m at. Any opinions?????? Please give me your feedback!

Well since I started to jump on this Twilight bandwagon thing I must say I’m a fan just like everyone else that gets their hands on this book. My mom started reading it because everyone at her work was reading it, watching my mom read this book I swear I’ve never seen her read a book so fast in her life, I was thinking hey maybe I should read it too to see what the hype is about. I love books like this! It started with Harry Potter. When the last book came out and I was standing there scratching my head while my work was getting ready for the release of the last book I was like I’m going to buy the first one to see what the craze is about. So anyway I read the first book in like a day, and continued with the rest. REALLY GOOD BOOK! At first with the whole twilight thing I wasn’t sure cause I’m not really into vampires. I thought it was just one of those kinda books. But yeah for anyone who hasn’t read it yet, please do! I love to read, its one of my passions, and so I wanted to recommend some good books for everyone to read. 1. Twilight series2. Harry Potter Series3. The Glass Castle4. A Piece of Cake5. A Million Little PiecesThis is just the beginning of my list to get some of you started if you care to check out those books. The first two books I listed are pretty much known already. The Glass Castle is about a girl who is brought up in a free spirited, totally not normal or traditional family. Her parents choose to be homeless! Yes thats right they CHOOSE to be homeless. This is her story about her different family. Very good book. A Piece of Cake is about a foster child who deals with homelessness and drug abuse and how she overcomes those struggles in her life. This book like A Glass Castle and A Million Little Pieces are memoirs. A Million Little Pieces is about a man going to rehab and getting clean. The way James Frey writes this book is very easy to read and is a beautiful story to read.