inthisdayofage

Today I called out of work because it was a snow day. I didn’t go play out in the snow. In fact I cleaned and read all day. Then at night I watched a cute movie called The Neighbor and now I’m relaxing listening to music about to read some more. Its been a great day! I have to work tomorrow night but it’s okay. I only work 4 hours and it’s the good managers. So I won’t be so miserable. I mean there’s no telling if a customer pisses me off but it still is better when the good managers are there. I can’t wait till school starts. Jan 7th please hurry!!! I have decided not to move from L.A county and I am relieved. My roommate flaked out saying something about getting her own place or moving out of town. Whatever loser! So I feel like it’s a sign from god that I need to stay here for now. I’m even applying to grad school here. Wow Go Figure! I think I can live here for a few more years. Its cheaper that way, I got my family here, and my amazing friends. I’m just trying to make the best decisions for my life. I’m tired of paying for the mistakes I have made, I’m tired of correcting them, this time I’m not making any room for mistakes. I’m done messing up. I’m not giving people chances because I know they will only bring me down. For example, hanging out with losers from work. It’s attention

Why??? Why I ask… Why do you lie? Theres something wrong with you people. I’m talking about the ones who just lie about simple things. You ask them, “Where did you park your car?” In their response they lie about it. I mean just random things to lie about that don’t make any sense. Why do it? I mean another thing I don’t get is their bigger lies as well. They can’t tell the truth at all for the life of them. I’ve dated a guy like this. I knew he was no good for me, but there was something about him that I just couldn’t let go. Maybe it was his good looks, but he lied about EVERYTHING. I still have no idea about his family life because hes lied to me about them. I don’t know how many siblings he has, I don’t know if his mom really tried to kill him when he was 7 years old, I don’t know anything! Why can’t you just be honest about this stuff? He also lied to impress me. Little things that are stupid in my eyes. Its like you know what would really impress me??? IF YOU DIDN’T freakin LIE!!! I finally left him for good but I still think of him every once in awhile. I think its better that we aren’t friends for me to really move on from him. I know I would never want anything serious with him so its like wake up and get on with your life. I need to tell myself this. Let it go! I have a friend too that likes to lie. I can’t believe anything he says. Why do we still talk then you may ask? I don’t know. He doesn’t even live in the same state as me. We just text, but he lies too. I have caught him in several when he came to visit me and then several after he left. Lying to impress me, lying about everyday normal life things. Dude- Go see a therapist. Lying is not good, it hurts the people you lie to and it hurts yourself as well. So if anyone that is reading this that lies, please don’t. Its not fair or fun.