inthisdayofage

Ugly. Tonight I hung out with an old friend who has changed soo much. She is drop dead gorgeous and everyone notices this. Everywhere we went all the guys are totally checking her out. Like necks breaking to look at her. Its almost uncomfortable being around her because of this, its like I feel gross standing next to her and none of the guys are looking at me. Not only is she drop dead gorgeous she is really sweet as always. I just don’t get why she is single. I would probably be embarrassed to see videotape footage of us hanging out, I probably looked soo uncomfortable and ugly next to her. I mean I don’t really have any self esteem problems. I know I am pretty but… right now I feel far from pretty. I am wondering if hanging out with her would be good for me, or bad for me. If we hang out all the time am I going to feel more encouraged to work out harder, or am I going to feel like crap and loath in my self hating after we hang out? We would get along great hanging out though because we are both single, have some of the same interests, some of the same friends, no kids. Most of my friends it seems like have kids or a boyfriend that keep them busy. But yeah I am done self hating on myself for now. :D