inthisdayofage

So I am in this situation, the one where my guy friend really likes me but I like his friend. I don’t know what it is about the friend. When I first met him I didn’t like him like that. I guess the feelings are just real because once you get to know someone you start to like them as more then just a lust thing. Cause I never lusted after this person until after a few times of talking. I think I am off limits to him. He hasn’t text me in awhile and I know he is busy and I know I can just text him but I don’t want to be the one chasing him. I want him to text me and say hi how are you and what not. Today I have been thinking about him ever since I woke up. I want him to be my man!!! Damnit! I have the tendency to blow things too. Which I think I already did. He probably thinks I like his friend that likes me, but I don’t. He told me I needed to let him know how I really feel and I told him I have but the dude I like said that his friend thinks we have something special. We don’t! He also told me that everything that me and the guy that likes me talk about he hears about it. So he tells him everything. Probably making him think that I like his friend too when I don’t. This leaves me sad. Why when I actually really like a guy and can ignore his faults that I can’t have him. I can have almost anyone I want but the one I really like.